“A father has to be a provider, a teacher, a role model, but most importantly, a distant authority figure who can never be pleased. Otherwise, how will children ever understand the concept of God?” – Stephen Colbert
A few days ago was the 13th anniversary of my father’s death. I’ve mentioned him before here and I’ve spoken of him as a hard man, and he was.
Today is Father’s Day, and I find myself wondering what he would think of me today.
I’ve owned my own business for 17 years now, and I think he would like that and be proud of me for it. On the other hand, I never followed in his footsteps and pursued his business when he was alive and I didn’t pick it up and run with it after he died. That, I’m sure, would be a big disappointment for him.
That’s how it was with him then, and that’s how it is now: I never quite know where I stand.
Does the pride outweigh the disappointment?
I’ve always lived with the feeling it didn’t.